Friday, May 18, 2007

i'm crying for you

i like you umi, you're really good, really i mean it from the bottom of my heart. i hope my heartfelt message will somehow reach you

i'm feeling really very sad, like hopeless.

i'm feeling damn damn damn sad my maid who is my really really really good friend and who's really really caring left, she went back to indonesia waaa i'm so sad i don't want to but i just can't stop myself from crying, i'm regretting now so much i should have faced her and said bye to her before i left for school and never be able to see her again since she would be flying off during the time when i would be in school. all because i didn't want her to see me crying already, now i wished that i should have just faced her and said goodbye properly, even if i cry in front of her. i wanted to tell her too that she was really really nice and really helped me and my family a lot. she told me that if she wasn't good enough she was really sorry. i was so touched when she said that, i almost wanted to cry right in front of her, plus i'm really very bad at controlling my tears and emotion, not that i like being emo and all. i just feel very very sad that she's leaving and i can't see her off at the airport. this sucks, hope she will be able to find her own happiness there and she's going to marry the man she loves hahax, oh no i forgot to wish her well on that aspect too damnit i suck like hell, i stink

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